"Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings your glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain"
Mercy Me, "Bring the Rain”
While this song has been out for more than two years, I still can’t listen to it without crying. Shannon, my strongest desire in this life is to glorify God. I fail miserably most of the time, but God knows my heart; and I keep on trying. I don’t know why my daughter’s life was taken from her. I don’t know why her daughters’ lives have been ripped in half. My heart breaks for my granddaughters. But I trust God…now…forever.
There is so much I would like to share with you but I can’t. We have to do this right…through a court of law. I will tell you this: If we had any doubt of Matt’s guilt, we wouldn’t go forward with this trial. We wouldn’t put ourselves or our granddaughters through this. However, it is because of what we do know (so much more than what has been made public) that we MUST move forward. I am reading this wonderful book, “the Shack.” There is a statement in it that says so clearly what Jim and I believe: “…judgment is not about destruction, but about setting things right.”
Matt said on “48 Hours” that I reside in anger. I don’t. I never have. I never will. I trust God. I can’t allow anger or hate to reside in my heart and squeeze out love. I am always amazed when people say (these words have been from people who support Matt), “Let it go. Move on. These little girls have lost a mother and they shouldn’t lose a father.” This stuns me. If you KNEW…If you had evidence…strong evidence…that someone killed your child…and now this man was raising your grandchildren…how could you live with yourself if you walked away???? That would be another crime. We must do all we can to set things right.
I do not hate Matt. I pray for him and I pray that I will be able to forgive him. I am not there…the forgiveness part. I want to be. I am a work in progress…still quite flawed. However, forgiveness does not mean forget and it does not mean that crimes should go unpunished. We want nothing more and nothing less than the truth revealed. Matt must be held accountable for what he has done. I am so sorry any of this happened. But things must be set right so that two little girls can be saved.
Thank you, Shannon. You are a wonderful she-warrior.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
I received this email from Kari's Mom. I thought it would be good to share and asked her permission to post it here. Keep hanging in there, Linda. You have people all over this nation (and beyond) praying for justice for Kari and her girls. God is working in His own time and I have complete faith that when He makes the next move on this case, justice will be just around the bend.